Friday, November 19, 2010
Well, I heard bad news today. My mom called me today to tell me the unexpected. She's got breast cancer AGAIN! When I thought things were just turning around with her and she was beginnig to feel so much better she has to go through it all over again. The cancer has come back. I hate that word. I seriously just ran the Susan Komen 5k in her honor because I was so proud of her for succeeding and overcoming breast cancer. It frustrates me really, however I'm no one to question God. God has everything under control, God took care of her the first time and I know he'll once more do it again.
My mom is having to do Chemo once again and suffer thruogh the devestation of losing her hair all over again. A woman's pride right?! Why am I even thinking about her hair? I couldn't help but cry as soon as I got off the phone with her. I wouldn't do it while on the phone with her. I started thinking things I probably shouldn't have been thinking about. My mom is so strong. She was strong and was able to make it through the first time okay. I couldn't help but think about how I may not have my mom around for much longer and it just tore me up. My mom and I are so close! I couldn't imagine my life without her. I'm being selfish obviously, but I tried to stop myself and started thinking positive thoughts and how she was fine the first time and how she'll get through it again.
This time around she will not be getting radiation. The Dr. said it was too much on her body to go through it again. They discussed she will have a mastectomy this time around with reconstruction in the future. Her cancer is stage 2 as it was the first time but agressive. Her dr. said it's a 'mean' cancer so they need to get on it quickly so it doesn't spread, we hope and pray it isn't in her lymphnodes. She will start everything as soon as thanksgiving passes.
For anyone who reads this blog, please keep my mom in your prayers. She's a tough one, but I know it wears on her. She needs strength to get through this once again and for the second time look back and say..."I made it through with God's help!" God works in miraculous ways and I know He'll help her through. I want to be able to run the Susan Komen again and know she's overcomed it again and once and for all!
Sunday, November 7, 2010
Who doesn't like getting stuff for FREE?! Shutterfly is giving away 50 free christmas cards to all who blog about them. This couldn't have come at a more perfect time. We're getting our family christmas pictures done in a few days and this is perfect!!! They have so many awesome holiday cards to choose from too! It's actually quite hard to pick because they have over 700 choices!! Yep, something for everyone. Its given me so many ideas as to how I want to lay out my cards.
Check out these links on what Shutterfly has to offer:
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Tuesday, November 2, 2010
People...I had to be creative with this one...i used pipe cleaners and bobby pins to put her hair up like this with a TON of hair spray. The dress, which I believe is perfect and so Dr. Seusish I literally found at Once Upon a Child for $4.50 and the cape was borrowed. This was the cheapest costume EVA!
She loved the makeup most of all of course!
Now to our little grinch. Sad you are probably thinking..but the girl is 15 months and has yet to get a head full of hair...so why not make her baby grinch right?!
I heard this song on the radio and absolutely loved it! I wanted to share because it's beautiful. I could listen to it several times because it's so good. Makes me happy and emotional all at the same time. Sometimes we all need that extra strength to push on and believe! Please listen.
Saturday, October 16, 2010
I was looking for several things in particular: A scheduled daily routine, curriculm, clean place, caring teachers (I know they all behave well when you first meet them, but mom's can sometimes sense this), outside playgound (surprisingly some schools didn't have one), affordable somewhat (ridiculous how much it costs! thank God we've begun their college savings), small and personable, and a place that would write down their daily activities. There's more to that list but well I would be on here forever!
I wasn't so worried for Arianna as I knew she was ready to be in a school. I was actually excited for her. I knew she'd tell me all about her day and activities. She has also talked about school for a long time now. It was a surprise to her when I told her she was going to start school early rather than at 4 years old. She's always told people she was starting school when she turned 4. The girl has got her birthday cakes planned already until she's 5..no joke! Any whoodles, she was thrilled about starting school! I love seeing my girl happy. However, Arianna was a bit disappointed when she thought she'd be picked up by an actual bus. When Monday arrived and she thought a bus was coming to get her, I had to tell her the bus was our yellow ford escape. Her disappointment showed on her face and I couldn't help but laugh. Her face went into this serious deep and confused look.
As for Avonlea, my little baby girl, barely 15 months...I was worried about. She can't talk really, but a few simple words like momma and dada. I knew she wouldn't be able to tell me about her day which worried me a bit. The school also told me she'd be sleeping on a mat on the floor and that just tore me up! I told them it would just be impossible and they reassured me she would pick up on it after some time and seeing other little ones doing it as well. She's use to having rails around her and not getting up and moving as she pleases. She also is used to having 4 hours of nap time. Avonlea is also drinking milk every 4 hours or so and I wanted to make sure they'd be giving her milk as she needed it. As you can read I was worried. But turns out things are going okay and I think she'll get use to it. I'm still a bit worried about naps as she's only had less than 2 hours of nap a day since she started last week, but hopefully things will get better with nap times.
Here's Avonlea with her new little buddy Riley. He looks out for her. She was supposedly crying the other day for me and he went over to her little cubby hole, got her blanket and brought it to her. I thought that was so cute and sweet. (Yes, she looks like a little boy and the shirt is red, but it has a bow on the neck line. If you look hard enough you can see it on the right! :) ).
What I was most worried about was the napping on the mat thing...well I think it's working. Look-a-hea! Is she not precious?! I was so happy to get this picture from the teacher. She knew I was so worried. It still breaks my heart because I think she's too little to be on a mat, but I know I can't keep her a baby forever.
Just a few more pictures...as you can see again..I couldn't get Avonlea to look at me. Doesn't Arianna look like such a big girl..she's only 3!
Thursday, September 30, 2010
Of course, odd things decide to hit me all at once within a day of each other. So here it goes...this is long so prepare yourself.
Monday morning I decided to start my work day at 8am rather than 7am. Go figure right! Well, I decided this because I was going to be in Nashville any ways for a Predator's Game and I was just going to stay in the area. Well on my way to work, there was so much traffic. I had forgotten how horrible traffic was right before 8am. There's never traffic before 7am. Any ways, right before getting into downtown I noticed all these cars in front of me slamming on their brakes. Luckily I saw it ahead of time and had the time to slow down. I guess the car behind me did not. I looked out my rear view mirror and saw him coming as I also heard squealing tires. He tried swirving to the left to get to the emergency lane, but obviously didn't have the time and HIT ME! I saw it all and of course I tensed (I know you aren't supposed to do this, but I did as I didn't think about that). We are okay and it was nothing too major.
His car was no longer drivable and mine was okay all besides the bumper. My bumper is dented heavily and is no longer attached. The guy who hit me-his radiator went out. It was leaking juice everywhere. We caused a huge traffic pile up on the interstate obviously! So get this, I find out the guy who hit me is a COP! Yep a cop. Pulled the badge out and everything! I was so relieved that it wasn't me who hit him. Could have been bad if roles were reversed. After making sure we were okay and talking about what happened he then tells me, "We don't have to file a report for this. Things will go quicker and it won't take too long and you can be gone. This will then not get on both our driving records. You can trust me. I'm an officer." Yeah huh! An officer my booty. I did not feel comfortable with this at all and I told him this. When another police man arrived on the scene the guy who hit me tells the officer that we were thinking about not filing a report. I looked at him and gave him the eye because I NEVER agreed to it. Any ways, the other officer said, "Yes, we will file a report." I was so happy to hear those words. The guy who hit me said, "oh you do things differently in this county." So with all that said, a report was filed and it's done. His insurance will pay for my damages! I found out later the reason he didn't want to file a report was because police officers who actually cause an accident get suspended for a week without pay. Because it's going on his record he'll get suspended now. Oh well! I don't want it to come haunt me later.
Okay, so with that wierd incident as if it couldn't get wierder, on Tuesday night I decided to leave my girls with my mom. I work from home Wednesday's so I didn't want to have to wake them up super early to drop them off to then come all the way home again. I left girls and went home for the night. I decided to let Zorro-my maltipoodle dog sleep with me. My pro-tec-tor. ha! If you know Zorro, you know he's not big at all. Nor scary. So we went to bed and I fell asleep. Around 11:30pm Zorro wakes me up barking. I wake up to hear 2 men talking....outside my freakin' bedroom window! I am so scared by this point that I call my neighbor who doesn't answer and then call another neighbor who tells me he's at his girlfriends house 6 minutes away and that he'll be over asap! I then call the 911 b/c I don't know any other number to call and they transfer me to Wilson county who then forwards me to Williamson County. They never answered. I'm so scared because I still hear these men talking. Well about 10 minutes later the men are gone and there's police outside my door along with my neighbor. They look around to find nothing. They noticed though that the gate was wide open. We never leave that gate opened because we let Zorro out back there. So someone had obviously opened it. So after a while, everyone leaves. At about 12:30ish or 1am, Zorro once again wakes me up to again these same men talking!!! Again in my yard. I am really freakin' out by now. I call the police once again and they arrive 15 minutes later. Again nothing. They looked all around. The gate was propped once again but nothing. I think the police were annoyed with me and I bet they were thinking I had made all this crap up, but the gate said it all. I don't care what they say. After awhile they left again and well I went to bed with a huge knife next to me and that was the end of that.
The next morning I couldn't focus on work at all so I took 1/2 the day off. My nerves were everywhere. As I'm getting off work, as if the car accident and then intruders in my yard wasn't enough...I hear an ambulance and fire truck in my neighborhood. Hoping all was okay, I looked out my window to notice they had parked in front our friends house. My stress climbed again! Remember the art blog? I made those paintings for my friend who is also my neighbor. I ran to my phone to notice I had just missed a call from her. I was praying to God hoping her baby was okay who was born early last week (I posted a picture of her in the blog before too-Emelia). We finally got in touch with each other and she told me she had started hemorrhaging. She just randomly started bleeding a lot!! I felt so bad for her as she's already been through so much. She asked if I could go sit with her mother-in-law Patsey to take care of the baby since it had been a long time for her. I think it was meant for me to get off early that day so I could help her out. I sat with Patsey for about 2 hours and just enjoyed cuddling and playing with little Mia.
Those were two wierd days for reals that I had to share! I haven't stressed in that way in such a long time...2 highly eventful days in a row with 3 incidents. Hay ay hay! I need a relaxing day so bad! Which won't happen in a while as I'm planning my mom's 50th birthday party for this weekend. However it will be fun so I can't complain. I do love my life but this was just an eventful 2 freaky days!
Thursday, September 23, 2010
Introducing all three babies in the order they were born....
Monday, September 20, 2010
Robert's been ready to go back to work. He's been a stay at home daddy since May and it's proven to be a little more difficult than he thought. Kuddos to all stay at home mommas. Not to say he was bad, but he's not cut out for it. But I have to say, he did a good job regardless. He fed, dressed, played and met their needs. The girls will miss him. Arianna is so attached to him it's ridiculous. Everything is daddy this, daddy that. Avonlea is somewhat the same. Anytime I take her out of her crib on Saturday/Sunday mornings and she see's him, her eyes light up! Honestly, deep inside, it hurts my feelings a little. Don't take me wrong though, I love the fact that they are so in love with their dad. I'm happy they have a dad who loves these girls so much. He's a wonderful dad and in some ways too, I'll miss him being with them. The girls will now be going to complete strangers and it makes me a bit nervous. I think any mother would be nervous to leave their children with complete strangers. It takes a while to warm up to a person your children are not use to.
So back to Robert...as an auditor for Crosslin & Associates he'll be traveling a lot! I've kind of prepared myself for this already. When he was in school and also had a full time job, he was gone Monday-Thursday until 10pm at night. He would barely see the girls then too because of his heavy workload. I mean I was practically a single mom to two little girls, one being a recent newborn. It was tough. So with that said, I've done it and will probably be doing it again. His job requires 40-50% travel. That's actually a lot. Now traveling could be local, but gone until 10pm at night. It also obviously means overnighters. There could be times in the year he's gone up to 6 weeks at a time! Crosslin has several big companies they audit in other states such as NY, TX, Ca, DC, etc... However, they'll pay his flight home every weekend if he wanted to come home Friday-Sunday. They also said I could go with him, but that I'll have to pay my own way. He gets mileage reimbursement for every audit job and food per diem. Obvioulsy they'll pay his hotel. He'll maybe be in his actual office 2 times a week, because he'll be auditing other companies at their actual location. For example, some of their audits right now are Meharry College, Union college, city of Nashville, MTA, Nashville Electric and so on. So he'll actually be driving to work in the mornings to one of these locations and audit. Fun job huh?! To me absolutely BORING, but it's what he wanted to do. :)
He also gets a $2,000 bonus for taking his CPA. Yay! And when they asked what he wanted to get payed, he told them and they said, okay, we'll do it. Obvioulsy they really want him and didn't want to lose him. He went through 6 interviews in one day!!! They took him to lunch at Jay Alexanders and then later in the day they offered him the position. He was there from 10:30 until 3:30pm. He had no idea he'd be there that long. What company does this all in one day??? He had the interview Wednesday and he accepted Friday. I'm so proud of him. Truly I am. All his hard studying towards his CPA this summer has payed off. He's got one more to take the end of October and he'll be CPA certified/ready.
So with all that said, I'm a proud wife. I'm extremely happy for him and I know he'll do a great job. His goal is to one day be a CFO or Controller and I'll know he'll accomplish it. Way to go babes!!! I love you.
Friday, September 10, 2010
I decided to paint 2 paintings for one of my dear friends whose expecting the end of this month. This meant a lot to me and I wanted to do something special for her. She's having a little girl. She's been through so much and has suffered through several miscarriages.
So in order to make the perfect bird on canvas, I bought pretty scrapbook paper and I then used a friend who has a cricutt machine (on my wish list) to cut a perfect bird. I would not have been able to do it otherwise. I had to get creative.
As I've mentioned before, DC cannot be seen in 3 days. Our main objective was the Restoring Honor Rally put together by Glen Beck. We planned around this. Robert is a huge Glen Beck fan and well we decided spontaneously to go without girls. We stayed at the Hyatt Regency in Bethesada Maryland-about 10-15 miles out right on the metro. Nice and clean hotel. I was so happy we decided not to take a car as parking was $22 a day at the hotel..not to include $20 a day to just park in DC. Ridiculous.
When we first arrived at the airport we took our very first marc train out to Union Station to get on the metro. This was a bit overwhelming at first but we very soon figured all out.
-Our First Full day- got on the metro and went to the smithsonian metro stop. Here we are standing at the mall. I was a bit surprised with the mall. I always thought it was paved sidewalks, gorgeous and fancy. Well not so much. Its gravel sidewalks all along the sides and patches of grass throughout. Of course people always come out here for different gatherings and stuff so I kinda understand the grass thing. Any ways, I was still in awe. Just being there and seeing the monuments was amazing in itself.
Lots and lots of peoples
I wish we had this place here locally. It was 2 floors.
We headed over to the American History Museum. I loved it and we didn't even see it all. I really didn't take much pictures in there except this because we had so much fun doing it. You pick a famous president speech and read it at the podium. I was actually pretty good. Because i have such a loud mouth, people actually stopped to listen to me give my speech. I was a bit embarrassed at first, but I got over it quick. My secret service men looked out for me.
Resting place for George and Martha-beyond that black box/hole are more family
View from their back porch
It was obviously built that way for a reason. They may have gone in groups back in the day. Who knows!
Anywho, this place took all day because of metro and bus driving just to get here. For dinner we ate at an Irish Pub. No pictures. :( I was too tired and not thinking about it. We didn't get to our hotel until past midnight. As sad as this sounds, we rarely stay out that late anymore.
This is inside the dome. Only place we took pictures really.