Relieved

I know this is TMI and I'm going to share my thoughts for a second, but I woke up this morning to my period. Yep! I was happy. I smiled so big, looked up and said, thank you Jesus. For a bit there I thought I may be pregnant again. My periods have been coming regularly, however I didn't get a period last month and I was getting a bit worried. My husband and I figured it was the change in birth control. This time, I'm on the white sugar pill week, suppose to get it and it's Wednesday before I get it. I've never been one of those lucky girls who knows the day and time of when it's going to hit. So I just didn't know if it was coming. Its more of a gambling game for me, 'maybe today or maybe tomorrow, maybe now..i better be ready'.

In the last few days I've been soooo tired and I thought for a second yesterday, 'this is the very way I felt before I found out I was having Avonlea'! I came home straight from work and seriously crashed. Now, this doesn't happen often since the girls are normally home, but they were with their grandmother so I had a chance to actually take a nap. Otherwise, naps would be out of the question. And normally had I been pregnant I would have already gotten sick which didn't happen this time around. So really, I don't know why I worried so much.

Any ways, I'm good. No babies anytime soon. I seriously would die telling work I was pregnant again. I'm not quite ready for a 3rd child just yet. :) I don't think I could handle it right now. One day...just not now. I'd like Avonlea to be at least 2-3 before I even consider once again. Oh and I would actually LOVE to plan the next one since that hasn't happened with either of my girls. So thank you God for my period. I'm so relieved.

Uh oh!

So I'm trying to play around with this whole blog thing by learning and creating my own personal likes. I'm really messing this up. This is hideous. Sorry pooka, Kris. I know you worked so hard. I have no idea what I just did. This is only temporary. I don't know what I just did, but it makes me want to spend my whole work day working on it but I can't or I'll seriously get caught. Our IT staff could seriously get on my case about this. My boss would fire me if she knew I was spending my time on blogs and facebook.

Okay, so I seriously have a problem with computers. I'm good when it comes to spreadsheets, word documents, power points, etc...It's what I do and what I've learned throughout my professional career, however when it comes to designing blogs, facebook, uploading stuff, I'm crap, doodo, caca, you name it that's what I am when it comes to this stuff. :) I admit it. Have patience...my time will come and you'll be so blown away by my creativity that you'll be like, "What?! Esther can do this-Brilliant?!"

Me...a procrastinator..NO WAY!

Okay so here are a few of the things I've got to do:

Update my blog and post pictures, figure out the what's and how's of blogging (I'm amazed at what others can do. I'm so clueless), hang pictures on my walls, hang chinese lanterns in Arianna's room, hang a shelf in Avonlea's room, paint several canvas paintings for Arianna's room, girls bathroom, and 2 friends, put curtains up throughout my ENTIRE house, print pictures to put in all these frames I bought I a long time ago, take the time to make picture books for both girls, organize my entire photo file, take Arianna to her first dental appointment (she turned 3 in March for goodness sake), organize all my closets, find baskets for my cubicle organizer, go through all of the girls clothing and seperate what they fit and can't fit into, garage cleaning, paint front door, buy kitchen knobs to change out my hideous gold ones that I have, change out light fixtures by front door and dining room, buy a dining table with buffet, finish staining deck, landscape, find patio furniture, and the list goes on and on. Pretty much in a nut shell, FINISH DECORATING MY HOUSE! I have cute ideas and in my head I vision my house looking beautiful, but it's just taking forever. I've had my house now for 2 years in August and I have so much to do it stresses me out. I take pride in all my friends who are so good at getting things done. I have to say I work really well under pressure, however, it stresses me out and it's really not worth it. I've been like this my entire life and can't seem to get out of it. I remember I use to stay up until 3am finishing art work or school projects because I waited until the very last minute to start it.

So if I can make myself sit down on the computer sometime this week after work, I'll post some pics of Rob's graduation which took place May 8 (sad I know), our Lost party (May also), and our Arkansas trip. Oh and I guess I do have to update facebook as well. ughh!